this action, even for a short period of time, one could not stop. The action was a irreversible as were the results.
"After his return from the school, Jean, in a burst of confi- dence, told me of the sensuous pleasure the feeling of silks, satins and fine linens gave him. He asked permission to try on some of my clothes at times. I refused this request as being premature. At about the time of this request, I noticed that he enjoyed and looked forward to doing his nails and hair and to keeping his body clean and scented. Although his boyish physique had hardly altered his body seemed softer, and he was still stronger than I. Two weeks after his request to try on some of my clothes I bought him a pair of long silk hose, a pair of high heeled shoes, garters, several pair of silk panties, pink, baby blue and white (two pair lace trimmed and one tailored), a very light pink satin slip, prin- cess cut, and lavished with lace at the bodice and hem. I also bought him a corset, a long sleeved blouse and a brown jumper dress with a square neckline and full skirt.
" quietly put them in his bureau drawer and watched his attempts to wear these garments without my knowledge. When I finally 'discovered' his actions, I made him, in my presence, dis- robe and put on the lingerie. He was greatly embarrassed and very humiliated, but I was kind and understanding and thus assauged his humiliation - if not entirely his embarrassment. While initially it was necessary for me to steady him while he put on his high heels, he learned very rapidly to walk in these shoes. I allowed him to wear his girls clothing only at night and noticed that his interest in wearing this apparel was intermittent. He would dress for sev- eral evenings and then lose interest for several days or perhaps a week. Then he would return with renewed enthusiasm which would again wane.
"It was about a year after Jean came to me that we suc- ceeded in loosening the tendons and muscles of the neck, should- ers and arms to such an extent that the prophetic instruction:
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